What the heck does it mean to let go? What am I supposed to be letting go of?
Someone, something, a thought, feeling, action, the past – what?
Unity Church says, Let Go, Let God. I remember the first time I heard that I was eager and confused. As a woman highly interested in her spiritual growth and vested in becoming who others seek out for support and strength – I had to become one who understood what I did not.
Fast forward about 6 years.
This year Letting Go is my theme, my word, my mantra and my celebration.
I have an amazing life and I am doing what I love. I am not perfect nor is my life. I know I am in charge of it. I am the creator and divinely guided – that is – when I listen and when I let go.
I’ve tested it out and I can honestly tell you that letting go has to be.
I had to let go of being in charge of it all. I said I didn’t want to do it all myself but my actions spoke louder than words.
My husband came to the US from Algeria, needing to learn the ropes here. He depended on me to lead the way of what was considered the American way.
I loved it and I hated it. I wanted to be in my feminine and have my knight in shining armor take care of me – and that does not mean I wanted to be any kind of damsel in distress.
I was associating being in charge as very masculine and it was time I let go of some of that behavior, after all, I left the corporate world and that is where it got out of control. My control thing that is.
I had to be in control there, I was paid to have it all together and make sure those who worked for me did too. It was a long hard coming into this woman that earned accolades, high fives and a bonus or two. But it made me crazy. Crying behind the office door. Pretending to be that which I was not – a man in a suit.
Letting go has been a work in progress. Turning my trust over piece by piece. Some pieces bigger than others.
The biggest ones had to do with me trusting me…
Wanting to know myself enough to feel good now, with the moment, with the body, the hair the house and the car…with the love of all my dreams unleashed and shared out loud. I’ve come along way. I am very close. And this year is honoring my effort of being the best woman, mother, friend and wife, entrepreneur – and lover of life.
I forgive me. I forget the past. I am going for the full blown pleasure of trust and authenticity that is forever mine.
I Let Go and Let God.
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